Midnight Rendezvous = A Love Story

It isn't often that I allow an interaction between myself and an other to get me so angry that I envision ripping the person's face off. 

Well, someone pissed me off so badly recently that anger settled deep inside of my core and had been hanging tough within my very fiber.  I'd been in my head.  All week.  Thinking about how it happened. Remembering how I felt in that moment. What I should have said. What I will say when me and the other have an opportunity to debrief the event. 

Several times over the past few days I'd considered marching up to the other to give up even more of a piece of my mind than the constant chatter in my head had invested.  Not feeling peace about it, I'd opted to give myself the time that I thought that I needed to work this one through.

Translation (as I realize it now) = I wasn't ready to move past it because I relished in the, at the time, pleasurable state of pissed offedness.

And, because I was a victim of this person's ill reaction to their own drama, I settled comfortably into my "right" position and allowed myself to get sucked into carrying the negativity of that moment around with me like a badge of martyr. 

So, I didn't sleep well last night. That, and a few other things,  piled up into a big ball of overwhelmed that snapped my eyes open at 4 with no back to sleep in sight.  It occurred to me that it was time to take a deep breath and the entire mess to God so that I could get back to my normal state of mostly calm.  And that is just what I did. 

Afterward, I reached over for a sip of water and the Word and opened the Book to the following warm and Loving reminder:

John 10:18 (New Living Translation) 18 "No one can take my life from me. I sacrifice it voluntarily. For I have the authority to lay it down when I want to and also to take it up again. For this is what my Father has commanded.”

And gently reminded I was; that no one can take my life, or my joy, or my peace, or my balance, or my clarity, or my calm - unless I decide that those are the pieces of me that I will offer to an other or to a situation.

I wish you Peace.